5/10/2013

虽然我一直说我喜欢一个人独处

但其实不是

我怕孤单寂寞

我不喜欢也很怕别人忽略我

尤其是我觉得重要的人

我不喜欢别人敷衍我

不喜欢在不了解我的情况下

对我下定论

我的脾气是有点暴躁

但是我很少对朋友发脾气

我对什么事都说无所谓

不是因为我没主见

不是因为我什么都无所谓

而是....

我知道很多东西

但我却一直装傻

只是不想多管闲事

很可惜，

除了唯一的死党

肯听我说

接受我的意见

不会鄙视我

还会在我需要人陪的时候陪我

没有人会这么做

我时常口是心非

答非所问

不是想隐瞒什么

而是怕

最近几天

经常精神恍惚

心情低落

如果我不把这些说出来

我可能会发疯

对某人：

我是喜欢你很久了啦，你有很多追求者

我知道我的机会可说是很小

毕竟，我跟你不一样

我一直都在旁边默默的守着，其实心里真的很痛

但可不可以别对我忽冷忽热

在我已经快放下的时候对我那么好，那么亲密

我要崩溃了

hope miracle happen.

13.02.2012

Its been a long time i didn't update this blog.


2012 is really a tough year for my class,
everyday has a lot of homework to do that it will never finish..
I felt pity for my whole class,
homework never end,
not even having a time to have a nice dinner nor a good sleep,
I feel grateful that everyone is doing their best,
What i know is i have a amazing class and nice classmates...


___________________________________________________________________________


I don't feel like i am better without you,
ever since that day
i thought i will forget and ignored u forever
but...
how hard i've tried
you never been rub off
pity me
Since that day i grab your hand
i say it to myself
don't let go
but its not me the one who let go
i still keeping my promise
i don't think i will let u get off my heart
So..
If there is a chance, i'm going to leave and go to a place that very far
that i will only come back maybe few times or just once..


* not because of valentines i write this, me myslef also forget when is 14/2.. i just realise after i asked my mom >< .




Can i be a song composer?
Or an artist?
Or anything my mom made me learn since i was in kindergarden?


Being a composer, i got the rythem but wihout the lyrics
An artist, sometimes my drawing sucks


I'll use my holiday times to compose some nice song or play songs
I used to learn everything my mom want me to
but now I want my mom let me learn what i want


Be strong, be tough, be confident...
There is no dream as long as it can be real in reality..
There is not wrong to be a dreamer as long as you wanna succeed badly..


JS.

3/11/11

Its been two months i didn't update my blog,
I had been so busy doing my akaun folio
and after that its exam.
Exam held for 2 weeks,
but now the result is out
my result sucks
luckily my chinese pass as i failed chinese past two exam
phew~

Last week i've been started to work,
only few knew whr i work at..
Its tired cause i need to work after school everyday
today is my off day
so i got the time to rest..
actually not rest so much
just relaxing myself..

Not talking much,
tired,
sleep in the class during lesson,
looks like a stim pig.

I'll try my best to success, no matter how hard i need to overcome the stress.
I'll succeed, just need some time and support....

05/09

Today is my worse day ever.
I hate what i've done before exam
Regret is useless now
From now on,
i'll do my best for the final exam
although the exam is near about 3 weeks later
i think i can do my best for this time

I don't know how to tell my mom bout my result
hope she can understand tthat i already tried my best
She was too strict to me

Me, as a chinese
i failed my BC
how terrible it is >.<
If i can choose,
i sure won't take BC in SPM

Pray for me so that i won't get scold
I hope she can forgive me for having such terrible result..

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04/09

I'm back.
From now on,
I am going to live alone,
No Love, only friendship?
Maybe, maybe not
hope this feeling go off my life

For my best buddy ____ WX
we know each other since standard 5
That time,
We play together, eat together, study together, tuition together, do homework together, go on trip together..
after that although we are not in the same school when 13
but we still do the same thing
and now,
you're my best best buddy and friend from all other
because this is wad we born to be____ buddy~~~~

THAT'S ALL ..

12/08

我回来啦 :D
最近精神不好
很容易生气，
很容易累..

月头发生了不少事
考钢琴，口试，比赛..
快累透了..

啊~~~~
我又胖了..
是时候去gym了 /.\
跑步，游泳，打球..

不过有件开心的事
那就是--- 我要生日啦~~~
下星期4~
血拼~ 我等你很久了~
噢耶~

我的生日要到也就代表要考试了
图书馆，我回来啦
想以前酱去图书馆K书
不同的是
我们不再是一群一起去了
不过还是会有机会的
现在开始
我需要K_Chemi, Sej, BC, BM, Add Math, Moral
Bio就不需要K酱多因为我有补习啦_追得上的

现在还在考虑要不要参加合唱团的比赛
现在整个合唱团给你们两个搞到一团糟
很爽是么?
一个是拍马屁攀关系上位的，一个什么都不负责只听马屁精的话..
本来就只有我们那小群的人不爽
你的态度弄到更多人讨厌你
外界人或许不知
干！
拿了人家的青卡4天了
今天人家跟你拿回
你竟然可以笑着回答说你放在家
够力可悲
你没药救了你...

最近想到一些句子:

You are nobody to me, so leave me alone.

I might be the one you love, but to me you are just a special friend.

I don't have relation with you so shut the fuck up. 

30/07

我回来啦啦啦~~~~

最近功课很多叻，
到现在都还没做完

今天篮球比赛~
开心开心~~~~

虽然没赢
不过还是很开心
受伤是有的
内伤比较严重

星期一比赛又考试
惨定了..

我累了
是时候休息了..
到此为止